Shout out from Gratitude Avenue
Everyone can identify with the darkness that can and does overtake us like a blanket that has no beginning or end. There are times the light will blink through in small slits for brief moments. It is not enough to break the bondage. If we are honest, it is just enough light to make us angry. We want a breakthrough. We want complete deliverance. We want happiness in abundance. We wonder, who keeps playing with our minds. That is more our story than what I am about to share with you now.
I have been traveling through the Dark Night of the Soul for some time. I can’t tell you how long, because when I am on that journey I do not relate to time or seasons. It is just one long painful period that seems to never end. This weekend I experienced deliverance. The light came on in all God’s blazing glory. He cast out all darkness and shown the light as only he can. All the work and submission I had been putting into the change I sought reaped a harvest… love overflowing. The seeds that had been planted broke ground. God promised he would “…comfort all who mourn, and provide for those who grieve in Zion, to bestow on them a crown of beauty instead of ashes, the oil of joy instead of mourning, and a garment of praise instead of a spirit of despair.” Isaiah 61: 2b-3. He gave me love overflowing.
Lately, I have recognized God has been smiling on me. I have been basking in his love as if I was laying on a beach in the Caribbean. Catching the rays of his loving kindness. I am grateful. I have been surrounded by love on every side. I recognize he is moving in my behalf. He has and is showing me his promised are real. It is meaningful and worthwhile to believe in him and obey his word and live in his way. He is restoring what has been lost, “…And I will restore to you the years that the locust hath eaten, the cankerworm and the caterpillar and the palmer worm…” Joel 2:25.
Understand, it is not that he has been shining on me like a light switch that had off and on according to how I was feeling about him and life in general. He shines all the time because he is not ac/dc. He is the same yesterday, today and forever. I was blind and could not see. My eyes have been opened and I have been healed enough to enjoy my blessings that have been surrounding me all along.
All I can say is, hold on and stick with it. Whether you go through standing, bon your knees, bowing, crawling or flat on your face. Hang on, the light is coming. Cry your tears, shake your fist in anger, but don’t give up and don’t give in. Will I have dark days again. Yes. Will I hurt and don’t understand? Yes. Will I feel like giving up again? Yes. But join with me as I share my final instructions for the week “…forgetting those things which are behind, and reaching forth unto those things which are before, press toward the mark for the prize of the high calling of God in Christ Jesus” Philippians 3:13-14. For today, the sun is shining, and I am grateful.